Down in the Dumps

Ok, I know I've been sooo lame at blogging but I just haven't had time to do it. I'm really trying to stay focused at work and get everything done in a "timely manner". But the last few weeks I've been kinda down and its been bugging me, not to mention David and Caz. I mean, I had Karen Jr. and Bec over to scrap and I wasn't even that excited about it. Such a lame hostess. That's not like me - I usually LOVE haveing people over. And I haven't been acting that nice to David and Caz and they are basically sick of me. I tend to start feeling numb to things and it shows in everything around me, home, work, church. It scares me to think I'll have to increase my meds and I can't stand that thought. I won't just try to make it better by doing that. I need to work on myself and hopefully get through the times it happens. Last month it started with PMS and then it drug on for another 2 weeks. That's practically a whole month.

My sweet husband sat us all down last night for a family meeting. He was very nice and patient about telling me how hard it is on us all when I'm a rag (my word). Basically, he doesn't want to deal with me when I'm snotty and sarcastic, so he's going to keep his distance when I'm in that mood. I think that really helped. I mean, I felt so good after that because we were able to sit there and talk about what's been going on with each of us. I'm lucky to have a husband who cares about that and wants to have a happy family.

HAPPY, HAPPY DAY PART 2

So, to continue my Happy Post... Easter Sunday morning came really early - I woke up around 7:00 and reviewed my lesson. I got ready for church and woke Caslon up. I went to choir practice at 9:00. Yes, I'm singing in the choir. No, I'm not good or up to par with the other lovely-voiced singers. But I can usually keep a tune and can add some volume to the rest of the group. Its been fun so far. During practice, we only had about 10 minutes until we were done and one of the bishopric counsellors come in to the room and asked to talk to me. He said Caslon called and need me to call her at home. I got to the phone and while I was dialing, I listened to her voice mail message on my cell phone that had been turned off. She was hysterically crying and saying that David had hurt himself in the shop and I needed to come home right away. When she got on the phone and I actually talked to her she had calmed down a little bit but couldn't tell me what had happened. I drove home as fast as I could. Luckily we live about 5 blocks from the church.

When I walked in the door I found David laying in the bathtub filled with water. He looked fine to me, except he was in excruciating pain. He pointed to his foot and I saw that his big toe had been smashed and the nail was black and blue, with blood dripping from it. What happened was, he was in his shop downstairs and was using a shear where you stood on a steel step which caused a blade to come down and cut metal. His left foot was underneath the step when he dropped all his weight on the step with his right foot, crushing his left toe. He hopped over to the downstairs bathroom where Caslon was doing her hair and he started yelling in pain. Somehow he got himself upstairs and into the bathtub to keep the blood off the floors, and to be able to elevate his foot. I found some Tylenol with codeine and gave him some for the pain. I got him into bed and cleaned up his foot. Caz and I then had to leave for church. His toe is healing well and he was able to drive on Tuesday. He apologized to Caslon for freaking her out, and thanked her for helping him so much. He also apologized to me for not going to church that day on Easter to hear me sing in the choir, like he had planned to.

Heather, Chelsie and Luke came to our ward and sat with Caslon while I sang in the choir. I have no idea how we sounded because I was concentrating so hard on hitting the high notes that I didn't listen. My lesson went well in Relief Society. My ward is great at giving comments and sharing stories, so it makes it easier to teach the lesson. I'm glad Heather was there!

After church Caslon and I went home and took care of David, making sure he was set for the evening. We left for Rebecca's house for Easter dinner of soups and bread, and an Easter egg hunt. We got to see a video of Rebecca's family on their latest ski day together. It looked so much fun! It was great being there and seeing my family.

Monday at work I really missed David and Caslon. Sometimes we have such a good weekend that I don't want to go to work or be away from them. Monday night we made quiche for dinner and watched some of the talks from conference. That was a great way to spend Family Night. I really appreciated Caslon and David being willing to spend time doing that with me.

So, I think that sums up my awesome weekend (excluding the not-so-awesome toe smashing part).

HAPPY, HAPPY DAY! PART I

Wow, haven't blogged in a month. I don't blame you for not checking my site anymore. I'm kinda lame. I'm even too lazy to change the color of my font! I wanted to share some happy things that I've had happen this weekend.

Friday was a day off of work (that's enough to make ANYONE happy). The best part was the weather was 75 degrees! There's nothing better in Seattle than when its sunny and warm. I woke up late and then David and I went out to breakfast at the Brown Bag Cafe. They give you so much food we had leftovers for the day after. They make homemade bread and huge cinnamon rolls to die for, but not as good as Noelle's or Rebecca's. We went up to the junior high to fly David's remote control airplane. It was pretty windy up there and on the first flight, it landed about 30 feet up in a tree. Luckily, a nice neighbor was watching and gave us a long pole and some twine (we were so MacGyver that day) and we coaxed it out of the tree. David tried it one more time, and it crashed to the grass, then he practiced taxiing it around the lot and then we went home after that.

I worked in the yard for 5 hours that day! I totally took advantage of the sun by wearing a tank top and short shorts! I WAS sweating and dirty, so I thought it was ok not to wear my garments anyway. I pulled weeds, picked up leftovers from the December wind storm (sticks and leaves), picked more dandelions, raked and pulled vines and overgrown groundcover, and even did a couple chops with an ax on some branches before David came and saved me from cutting off my foot.. or worse. It turns out he's an excellent lumberjack. Something else I'm amazed at with him.

We took a lunch break and then decided a nap sounded good. It was the best feeling to be able to say "I want to take a nap" and be able to go in our room and do just that. No bosses, no deadlines, nothing else to do. I need more days like that.

That night I went to get my nails done. After 5 years of attempting to grow them out and biting and chewing them, I had acrylics put on again. When I got home, David had the grill heated up for steaks and had made cheese fondue. We had a memorial dinner for his Aunt Mary who passed away last month.

On Saturday we slept in again and then Caz came home from Brian's house. She had been gone all week for Spring Break. We did a little cleaning around the house and then she and I took off for the grocery store. That night we watched The Prestige with Christian Bale and Hugh Jackman. Really good story. Then I worked on my lesson for Relief Society the next day.