Down in the Dumps

Ok, I know I've been sooo lame at blogging but I just haven't had time to do it. I'm really trying to stay focused at work and get everything done in a "timely manner". But the last few weeks I've been kinda down and its been bugging me, not to mention David and Caz. I mean, I had Karen Jr. and Bec over to scrap and I wasn't even that excited about it. Such a lame hostess. That's not like me - I usually LOVE haveing people over. And I haven't been acting that nice to David and Caz and they are basically sick of me. I tend to start feeling numb to things and it shows in everything around me, home, work, church. It scares me to think I'll have to increase my meds and I can't stand that thought. I won't just try to make it better by doing that. I need to work on myself and hopefully get through the times it happens. Last month it started with PMS and then it drug on for another 2 weeks. That's practically a whole month.

My sweet husband sat us all down last night for a family meeting. He was very nice and patient about telling me how hard it is on us all when I'm a rag (my word). Basically, he doesn't want to deal with me when I'm snotty and sarcastic, so he's going to keep his distance when I'm in that mood. I think that really helped. I mean, I felt so good after that because we were able to sit there and talk about what's been going on with each of us. I'm lucky to have a husband who cares about that and wants to have a happy family.